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a quien le sirva el sombrero que se lo ponga

i will no longer be a part of your sad simpathy
i will no longer think for you or help
how stupid was i to think that you could posibly give back what i give you
any of you
i feel such a large anger i just rather not even bother on providing you my presence
not well appretiated, never understood
while i always have to understand your BULLSHITS
it ends here
no more attachements
NO MORE SHARING
it was never share
fuck that
wow, really i just cant believe, it would come down all to this

rotten apple

whats the answer to all of this
i feel like im a walking dissapointment
i am
i dont have a clear point of view anymore
everything is blurry
i lack of motivaion
i lack of life
im sorry for wha i became to you
just a rotten apple
im sorry for the pain i caused you
i just wish me going away would make it better
but i guess running away is just not the answer
so what is?
what am i suposed to do
..just dissapear...

no entiendo..

...no me explico como cada vez que te encuentro se me pierde la mirada en tus ojos
como cada vez que me acerco me pierdo en tu perfume y sueño
como ...despues de tanto tiempo...todavia en ti pienso
y simplemente es el hecho de verte me causa todo esto
como las ansias de quererte me surgen de repente
como carajo
si ya esto se supone que es pasado
como es que todavia en tu sonrisa me cuelgo
y tu corazon deseo
y nunca lo tengo..

:?

ive decided myself for new things
tired of looking up to something that makes me waste my time
not worht my words , not worth my thoughts
it will simply fade in the air just the way it came
i just hate the way things always end in my way to just waste away...

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angel with no name

she lost her way
walked towards the smile on my face
dissapeared with the wind
gave her heart away to pain
inhales her own breath
and burns in internal flames
this angel without a name
walks with no shame
in her head her lovers memory always stays
while she flips her broken wings
i hear her cry miles away
i hold her secret but yet i lost the key to her chain

:)

ok so i was in a cab the other day.. cant remember where was i headed to
as always sugested the driver to put a intrestin beat on the radio since i was fellin blue cuz of the recents events..and i was just in my head gettin memories and just there radio plays this song..dont feel like dancin by the scissor sisters..
all i could posibly do is smile like a doofus..cuz i remebered this was one of hairballs fav
bands...she would of loved it , so here it is ..i do recomend to download it ..:)


Scissor Sisters-Dont feel like dancin

Wake up in the morning with a head like ‘what ya done?’
This used to be the life but I don’t need another one.
Good luck cuttin’ nothin’, carrying on, you wear them gowns.
So how come I feel so lonely when you’re up getting down?
So I play along when I hear that favourite song
I’m gonna be the one who gets it right.
You better know when you’re swingin’ round the room
Look’s like magic’s solely yours tonight
But I don’t feel like dancin’
When the old Joanna plays
My heart could take a chance
But my two feet can’t find a way
You think that I could muster up a little soft, shoop devil sway
But I don’t feel like dancin’
No sir, no dancin’ today.
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Even if i find nothin' better to do
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Why’d you break down when I’m not in the mood?
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Rather be home with no one when I can't get down with you
Cities come and cities go just like the old empires
When all you do is change your clothes and call that versatile.
You got so many colours make a blind man so confused.
Then why can’t I keep up when you’re the only thing I lose?
So I’ll just pretend that I know which way to bend
And I’m gonna tell the whole world that you’re mine.
Just please understand, when I see you clap your hands
If you stick around I’m sure that you’ll be fine.
But I don’t feel like dancin’
When the old Joanna plays
My heart could take a chance
But my two feet can’t find a way
You think that I could muster up a little soft, shoop devil sway
But I don’t feel like dancin’
No sir, no dancin’ today.
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Even if i find nothin' better to do
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Why’d you break down when I’m not in the mood?
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Rather be home with no one when I can't get down with you
You can’t make me dance around
But your two-step makes my chest pound.
Just lay me down as you blow it away into the shimmer light.
But I don’t feel like dancin’
When the old Joanna plays
My heart could take a chance
But my two feet can’t find a way
You think that I could muster up a little soft, shoop devil sway
But I don’t feel like dancin’
No sir, no dancin’ today.
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Even if i find nothin' better to do
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Why’d you break down when I’m not in the mood?
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Rather be home with no one when I can't get down with you

To the sun

i wrote this couple of weeks ago...

while we dreamt of fake silluettes you took that journey to the eternity one morning
and in betweeen those lost streets you faded
leaving traces on the floor for us to follow
everything became so gray that day
walls now seem bigger in your absense
yet your beauty always remains
in my head
things are sometimes meant to not be understood
seems so unreal it makes me think youre still here
sittin on your bed, reading a good book like you always said and smoking a cigarette
yet those things are just in my mind
now you must be ok cuz i know you would of broken the clouds by now if you werent
but things will on
you become a memory
you become a simple smile on my face
now you paint our skies
you hide the moon
you use shooting stars as bullets for your magic gun
always watching everytime you take that morning walk to the sun

RIP Claudia.....ill see you again someday hairball

...quiero besarte..
...quiero matarte...

...reunir un solo sentimiento es casi imposible cuando en ti pienso..

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i walk among the distractions
get confused by your reactions
again i fall for the passion
and i loose the sanity for another moment of your soul
i destroy myself and pick up the pieces
i kiss your pain and close you wounds
while in dreams i hold you close
endless , painless
simply beautifull
i think im wearing out that word
everything is just so unknown
feels like the twilight zone
never aware of what to do next
where to stop where to begin
i dont even know how to end this damn thing

hidden smile

inside you eyes
lies a dark ocean of stars..
each one with one scar
each one tellin a different story
on your body lies your pain
scrappin the hidden edges
edges that have no name
shame on the stranger who stoled your lips
shame one the ones who kept them while you just wanted a kiss
such beautifull silluette that hides beneath the stones
while they save your pain
you stay in the unknown
you cut yourself with their texture , but yet you still remain
hiding those broken tired wings that flew so far away
not much left of them
but still they take my breath away
inside your world where many tried and lost
no one ever notices
thats is all about your hidden smile

:)

my sunflower II

bright sunflower
open up as i watch you bloom
i count your petals that seem endless
but at the same time they are precise each in their own place
i obverse you as you observe me
stacticly
and slowly you move inside your own shell
you close and do not let me contemplate your beauty
you close as if you were harmed in such tragic way
close up as i watch you fade away
how much will you be able to take
its my inner ache that needs to watch you tear yourself apart
since you express it in a better way
should i watch you rot?
i dont know how much longer will you stay
my yellow sunflower..takes my inner pain

my sunflower I

its funny how things work..
ive gotten to the point of thinkin that things inside my room my stuff absorve my emotions
for example
about a week ago i got this sunflower as a gift..so bright and with shiny yellow color
lots of petals...it was so beautiful
just like the thought i was havin towards this certain person i rather not remember the name of
the thing is..i begun to get so many ilutions and stupid thoughts
i placed the flower on water in my room and startin the next day she began to bloom
and actually for a second i thought there was a posibility for me to be a little happy for a while
and the sunflower kept on bloomin inside my room openin up gracefully
later on the week i got several..better yet plenty of dissapoinments and tears became a part of my constant daily system ( yeah me cryin can you believe that?)
and as the week passed by this flower started to close its petals ...not rot..literally they closed up..
last night was quite crutial for me
everything just fell apart just like i did
everything is over
for now
and today...this sun flower is permanently shut
i cannot see the brown center of its beauty anymore
it sucked my emotions and it just closed..
quite intrestin i have to say
now im thinkin about throwin it away...or watch it rot

..

If you cant stay then i rather not have you at all.....

forget

its amazin how i loose track of time when im with you
short terms of moments that i always hope that last forever
and yet i wake up the next day hoping id see you again some day
but you just fade away
so many things i wanna say and do, its hard to think when im around you
i wonder if im always going to be in this back and foward motion with
you inside my head
everyday now it just hurts more the actual fact that i find myself missing you
and i just fucking hate to feel for you cuz you are just another dead end
you tend to proove me wrong every once in a million years and all the sudden im well again
i hate this
i hate the fact that i, in a certain way adore you
i hate the way you are just never there
i hate the way you look at me and i hate the way you deny
and i just fuckin hate the amazin way you make me feel when we pretend theres a you and me
and then it just disappears
you tell me what to do
because for me the only way out is to forget
just the way you sometimes do

O_o

Como me tragan los sentimientos cuando te observo
algo que solo puedo ver y no tocar
y estos viejos pensamientos que siempre escondo y a solas los acepto
y hasta a veces pienso que por un momento lo mismo estas sintiendo
pero solo por segundos agarro esa cierta mirada prohibida
ver y no tocar ..repito en mi cabeza
pues no puedo, serian muchas perdidas
solo puedo seguir mi camino
seguir siendo "tu hombro" solo tu buena amiga
a veces resbalo, eso si lo admito
pero no significa que vaya a llevarme de mis instintos
ver y no tocar..cuanto insisto