..

i walk atound my room
never wonder , never speak
my air just becomes the smoke i inhale
i disapear
unexistant
trapped
how is it that these things bother me still
how is it that you become the only thought in my mind
how is it that i havent destroyed
i have no pain
you keep taking it all away
and at the same time , leave me with nothing..

unfinished , like what i write...

To see and not to see
mentally unaware of the sickness in my pain
selfdestructed and yet i never lack of passion
i dont feel yet i bleed
...i know..
keep on fighting against the world
...my world..
i dont know whats real anymore
im trapped behind bars in a whole in my mind
and in this fear i cant escape
feeling numbinly insane
i just never feel safe
it all destroys who i am , who i will be and what i always have been
...lost..
always somewhat found by someone else
every now and then healed and kept away
never the less , push and breaked
these little piece is all i have left..

..

This stranger walks by
and i have this urge to know
whats it like, whats it all about

strange attraction..something i didnt notice before
such beauty in a simple smile , such silence and yet no one can tell

somehow i wish i could get closer...yet i dont know if i could ever

...

Entre mis pensamientos de soledad ahi espero
silenciosamente algo que ni si quiera yo se que es
he perdido el sentido del tiempo
mi vida vacia tan vacia como un hoyo de interminables errores
incomprensibles, impredecibles
perdida en la noche oscura donde nunca tengo paz interna
donde mis sueños son siempre eternos y mis realidades mentiras
ahi...donde nunca me encuentran
donde la sangre dentro de mi se va perdiendo
donde el dolor es mi fiel compañero
hasta cuando?
hasta cuando seguire los pasos hacia la nada
hasta cuando cargare con estas cicatricez
ya el aire que respiro me pesa
ya mi cielo ni mis estrellas existen
ya la luna me ha abandonado y ha seguido un nuevo rumbo
hasta cuando seguire perdida
deambulando...buscando algo que no encuentro

...Time once stood still
in a place where dreams flow
where only the stars shined light

the space remained blank
thoughts arrised ,
for once it was just you and i

Time once remained still
non existant

and at the same time, my life goes on....