It's been quite a while since I last wrote. I'm trying to find an exist to this empty void I have inside.
The past  years almost  have been quite a rollercoaster. but yet it does remain on the same page. Just blank and empty.

Evolve

Little by little. We are all growing in to the person we will become. We are all entering that unknown step where life  sweeps you off your feet again and hopes you know how to land. Life is changing, and in every step we take foward seems like change is up ahead, unexpected,  unknown, yet certain, that somehow things will never be the same.

Amar Hayete

"Waited a hundred years to see your face, 
And I would wait a hundred more
If only to be near you, 
To have you and to hear you.
Isn't that what time is for?

I sailed a thousand ships in search of you.
Traveled to distant land.
I dove for sunken gold.
I took what I could hold, 
But you're still the greatest treasure I've held in my hands."

I don't know what you do,
 but you do it well, 
I'm under your spell.

roce

El roce de tus manos sobre mi cuerpo quema mi piel.
 Tus besos se vuelven intensos mientras me pierdo en ellos.
En la oscuridad te acaricio y exploro la infinidad de tu cuerpo.
Mientras lentamente vas consumiendome. Todo se vuelve un sueño.
Desvaneciendo en tu pecho, en este fuego, en un frio invierno.

"..And I listen for the whisper, of your sweet insanity, while I formulate denials of your effect on me."

This is not a competition. I've already won.

Secret

Years have been, never expected, never thought, not even dreamed. I was handed this moment, this minute, this ethereal second, from you.. and in between the sheets you bloomed, such beauty, such passion,
Such secret
And in the darkness you were mines, and only mines to keep.
My hands wandered off on your soft skin as if it was an endless landscape in a utopian dream.
Your lips caressed mines and your silent moans only for my ears to receipt.
 Not years, not months, nor days would compare to how intense it feels to have your heartbeats echo in the abyss of you and me..

Note to self.

Always remember that things CAN fail. Theres always a margin for errors, and that life is what happens when your plans go upside down. Dont take it so hard on youself. Mistakes is what makes us real. And overcoming them is what makes us humans. 

new chapter.

So here we are.. a new year, another page
a fresh start.
yet my mind is blank.
i have a lot of things going for me as we speak.
my last week of vacation. starting a newjob. finishing school.
still im somewhat.. unease.
what is it that keeps disturbing me.
i have proposed to myself positive thinking
sorounded myself with people who deserve it.
rebuilted my family bonds. redirected my clock
i even bought myself an agenda to keep track of my things,.
now where doi find peace.
inside me.
theres some sort of hollow i cant seemto fill up with nothing
nor water nor love nor thoughts .
i need to focus.
life passes me by . im ready for it. yet.. i need focus.
i dwell on things .
must think positive.
just have to push. "release"button and live.

Pensamientos

Son las tres de la mañana..

Debería de estar dormida. Mañana sera otro día.

Sin embargo me encuentro pensando.. en la intensidad de tus besos, la eternidad de tus labios y tus manos sobre mi cuerpo.

Dulces sueños.

Tic-Toc

the time has come to wake up
drop your charades , finish the game
i have opened my eyes again
and what a view.
things need to be fixed
i am healing. i need to breathe
climb that step
i've been avoiding ,
its time
to
m o v e o n

Contradiccion

Como el tiempo pasa. como nosotros nos volvimos tu y yo.
como ahora soy solo yo.
y entre mi silencio y mis mil pensamientos relfexiono en que si fue lo correcto
tantas desiciones que se toman sin pensar para luego decir lo siento.
si.. yo lo siento,
que te hayas quedado con mi tiempo. si .. eso lo siento
que hayas recortado mi cielo y que lo remplaces con espejos .. definitivamente siento
lo siento.. cuantas veces escucho esto.
que sientes?
has sentido las veces que rompiste mi pecho?
o las veces que te dije te quiero. te amo. te adoro. te extraño.
y increiblemente siempre regresas.
y siempre lo acepto!
como es esto?
las miles de veces que te pierdo te encuentro
me encuentras.. me secuestras
me vuelves etcetera...
lo intento.. me defiendo... pero pierdo cuando me plantas tus besos
si.. eso yo lo siento.
ya tu te quedas con todo esto. pues ya no queda nada aqui dentro
hasta tu regreso... no siento

reorganize

so you fall you stumble but hey its a part of an everyday schore right?
with time things end up making sense even if it all seems so blurry now
things pick up as others just get lost
stationary vacations are never a good option
time moves foward . slips throught your fingers if you dont catch up
you loose. you win
you cry. you laugh
meditate life
time to change
leavin behind what holds me down
time to smile
shame for those who dont apretiate i wont stay around to see the grief
time to reorganize
time to breathe
time to leave :)

¨..what you do in life echoes for eternity..¨

no words

as I slip into your trance
I loose knowledge of time
while I fade into your kiss
and play with your lips
while my hands feel your soft skin
you breathe out and I breathe you in
words all the sudden simply become short ,meaningless
no need for words
space becomes nonexistent between you and I
and you end up over consuming me while I loose my mind

one more song

..i dont need more words than this. last one!..
had to get it out of my chest. te solte.


Gustavo Cerati
Crimen

La espera me agotó
no se nada de vos
dejaste tanto en mí
En llamas me acosté
y en un lento degradé
supe que te perdí

¿Qué otra cosa puedo hacer?
si no olvido, moriré
y otro crimen quedará
otro crimen quedará
sin resolver

Una rápida traición
y salimos del amor
tal vez me lo busqué.
Mi ego va a estallar
ahí donde no estás
oh… los celos otra vez

¿Qué otra cosa puedo hacer?
si no olvido moriré
y otro crimen quedará
otro crimen quedará
sin resolver.

No lo sé
cuanto falta no lo sé
si es muy tarde no lo sé
si no olvido, moriré
que otra cosa puedo hacer?
que otra cosa puedo hacer?
Ahora sé lo que es perder

Otro crimen quedará
otro crimen quedará
sin resolver....

bueh

ill always wonder ..
yet i guess ill never know
ill never tell
and neither will you
things fell
and yet i dont know why i still wonder
how long does it take. to forget all about you.

???

where did the fireworks go
the shooting stars
the shiny moons and magic cars
i seem to be in this place where apparently ive forgotten my way
i cant remember whats the catch
whats that thing
that extra twist
im forgetting what was it that amazed me about you
and it hurts me so to say it
where did it all go
where did that perfect ending go

Foo Fighters- Everlong

pa ti..

Hello. I've waited here for you. Everlong.
Tonight I throw myself into,And out of the red, out of her head she sang.
Come down and waste away with me. Down with me,
Slow how, you wanted it to be,I'm over my head, out of her head she sang.

And I wonder when I sing along with you,If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang:

Breathe out, so I can breathe you in,Hold you in, and now, I know you've always been.
Out of your head, out of my head I sing.

And I wonder when I sing along with you,If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang:

And I wonder,If everything could ever be this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when

te sueño

mientras contemplo en mis pensamiento la eternidad de tus besos
...me enredo...
entre tus brazos al ritmo del corazon sobre tu pecho me duermo ..
... y me pierdo..
en esos segundos dentro de tus ojos que se vuelven milenios
..y siento..
que solo contigo se calma la locura constante que llevo dentro..
con una simple sonrisa o un simple deseo..
..y un pequeño te quiero..
no creo que sea mucho pero si lo deseo
y a veces dentro de mi osuridad con una sonrisa plasmada en mi cara
..solo te sueño..